Hurm... sedar tak sedar, dah sampai masanya untuk meninggalkan tahun 2010 dan masuk ke tahun 2011. Dah macam-macam berlaku sekitar tahun 2010 ni. Ada yang baik, ada yang buruk, dan sebagainya. So, malam ni, aku nak akhiri episod tahun ni dengan ketenangan dan mulakan episod yang baru dengan ketenangan juga. Memori tetap memori, tapi jadikan memori itu satu pengalaman. Biar pahit, biar manis, itulah kenangan. Dah sampai masanya. Selamat tinggal 2010, selamat datang 2011... :')
Wow... It's been a long time since the last post. I am too busy till' I have no time for blog (but I always have time for facebook. hehe...) My brain is too busy+tired till it block my ideas to write for my blog. *haish... Last week, I'm so tired cos' there are lots of assignment to be done. I slept late every night(which means, too late!), my brain is too packed with assignments; like it's gonna blow my head off. My, my, my... Less rest for me every single day. Man, I really hope that this semester will end sooner. Ugh...
Since last semester in UNiSEL, I once heard one of my fellow says that the foundation student must be shifted to the campus-site hostel on the holiday month. Well, it has been conformed.
I had my last night at Kota Puteri. Hurm... although it is not as fun or like having-a-party stuff, I felt like so calm that night. I don't know what, I don't know why I felt that way. My friends said that I'm being too emo, *haha I guess they are right, though. It's not like we'll never see each other again, right. But it just that, there are too many memories in that place (even though I only lived there for 1 sem a.k.a 4 month). Hurm... I'm gonna miss the burger stall, the cafe, the surau a.k.a Surau Al-Hidayah, the house I've been living for 4 month(alone in that room. I do obtained privacy in that room. hehe~)... I missed everything.
Well, no more privacy; no more cooking; no more pets(aiyaa..); no more late-hangouts(worst!). Even the electrical appliances must be registered. (*shish... what do they care 'bout our apps. sebok je!). What ever it is, I have to welcome myself into the new environment(as I always did).
UNiSEL's campus-site hostel; here I come!
p/s: cukup satu bonet kereta, sumbat barang2 from Kota Puteri's house. hehe..~X3
Well, it's been awhile since I've been 'emotionally uncontrollable'. And it's been awhile since I haven't talk to my 'friends'. But now, things changed. I've cooled down myself (so far...). I've started talking to them. Hurm... Let bygones be bygones. But still, I do hope that those days will never happen again in the future, InsyaAllah...
Seriously, I have no mood recently a.k.a mood swing. Frankly speaking, I'm being too emotional of what people said a.k.a talking shit about TESL. It just that, I put all my heart toward this course and suddenly, some people, like, 'cursing' a.k.a. perli2 on what I'm doing. I feel so down (obviously, truly). Why? Why do they have to say such things? What, do they think this is just a pranks or games? NO! It is not a game for me. I do forgive them but still, I don't know if they realize; why do I keep myself away from them. Urgh.. I feel so terrible... Macam orang tua pulak, kan? Nak touching2... I do realize that.
Seriously (again), I really do feel that I don't deserve to be with them. Well, I'm just a TESL student, right? Like 10:1; they're the '10', and I'm the '1'. I rather be a so-called emotional person because nowadays, I do think that people nowadays has no feelings towards other peoples' feelings. A 'rock-type' a.k.a don't-care-type heart, I presume. Ada lagi yang buat tanggapan "Ada aku kisah?" or "Aku peduli apa?" etc2. But in my opinion, these kinds of people is a so-called-bullshit type of people. Orang yang suka 'menjatuhkan' orang lain. Stupid, right? Whatever it is, I still forgive them for their 'stupidity'... I really hate to say all these things, but I just have to. Sorry guys, but I had enough already.
I don't know what to do or what to say anymore... Just, stop saying those craps anymore, k. I really love you guys, but please... please don't hurt my feelings by saying this shit anymore. If you have no good thing to say, you better keep your mouth shut. Because you will not only 'hurt' me, but others too, okay....
p/s: No offense, guys. Kalau terasa tu, sorry la ye. Mintak maaf, mintak ampun banyak2 kalau terkasar bahasa. But still, I have to express my feelings too, right. Sorry...=|
Ni nak bagitau (kepada siapa2 yang bukan pelajar TESL):
Kalau tak tahu, buat cara tak tahu. Jangan nak perlekehkan ape yang kitorang buat. Jangan perlekehkan apa yang kitorang minat. Jangan suka2 hati nak komen2 buruk@ kutuk2 la, perli2 la, ape la kat kitorang yang sedang lalui pkara ni. Memang tak dinafikan course yang korang lalui itu susah; tapi jangan suka-suka cakap course yang kitorang lalui ni mudah+senang. Apa, ingat senang ke nak jadi guru bahasa inggeris? Nampak je kitorang relax+memang ar kitorang takde buat kira2, tapi otak kitorang ni full of formula, theory, psychology, linguistics, yang kena kitorang kena ingat+recall dari darjah satu sampai tingkatan 5/6. Ingat senang nak recall balik!!??? Ingat senang ke nak belajar tentang bahasa? Kalau senang, asal korang tak amik course ni? Sebab korang tak minat? Alasan konkrit semua tuh. Kalau dah tak minat, jangan kutuk la! Ingat kitorang ni nak jadi guru ape? Guru cap murahan? Korang ade tak fikir dalam2 kat ape yang korang cakap? Jangan ikut sedap mulut je! Fikir la hati orang lain sket! Kalau btol senang ar course TESL ni, apa pasal korang tak amik je course ni? kan SENANG, kan? Buat ape korang amik course yang lain? Buat susah2kan diri korang je, KAN!!?? Mulut longkang punye orang!!!
p/s: sape yang makan cili, dia la yang terasa pedasnya. so lain kali, jangan sedap mulut je nak mengata, k. slamat beramah...(-_-*)! *tengah pissed off gile nih!
First, the movie; now, the novel. huhu... If you guys love "A Walk To Remember", then you guys might love this novel too. Same writer for "A Walk To remember".
I don't want to tell you guys the whole story, but I want you guys to know that the story is AWESOME!!! ( for me laa.. hehe~)
This is a story about a dysfunctional family that tried to find happiness and love through their life. Love, Forgiveness, Truth, Family.
p/s: A great novel + A must-see movie = Brilliant Story!!! XD
And start to wonder if there's one thing That means more than others I have known And suddenly it's clear to me Without your love where would I be
Your love has kept me going Through good and bad times It's kept me growing Like a steady flame Your love has kept on burning Through sweet and sad times I'll keep returning to the magic of your love
Through the years my dreams may come and go For fortune is a fleeting time And no one knows what time may bring But through the highs and lows of it I'll know That there's one thing of which I'm sure The one thing I've been living for
Your love has kept me going Through good and bad times It's kept me growing Like a steady flame Your love has kept on burning Through sweet and sad times I'll keep returning to the magic of your love
Your love has kept me going Through good and bad times It's kept me growing Like a steady flame Your love has kept on burning Through sweet and sad times I'll keep returning to the magic of your love
I'll keep returning to the magic of your love Your love
I know, I have been keeping lots of secrets, but not lies...
I know, nobody's going to accept me if they know who I really am...
I know, maybe, if you do know, it is going to be hard for you to accept me...
I know, I'm not yet perfect...
I know, I have to change...
I know, God will always forgive me...
I know, only God knows how I feel since then...
I know, LOVE is not meant for me, for now, not yet...
I have to step back, learning and strengthen myself in every aspect of life and religion... I'll be waiting for Gods choice, InsyaALLAH, because only he knows who I really am...
Fuh.! It's been awhile since the last post. Gile busy all the time. Study, assignment, study, and most of all, internet WIFI at my hostel sucks. man...
Oh ya, ada story best nih. Last week on 3rd-5th of July, I went to S.P.I.E.S motivation camp at Kota Kubu Bharu, Ampang Pecah, Selangor. At first (my first impression), I was thinking; was this camp's for the one who've been selected to become spies?(Alamak, dah mcm cartoon Disney's TOTALLY SPIES dah... hehe) Then, masa on the way to the camp, I realized that the bus I took was moving toward the PLKN's Camp. (OMG...) But when I arrived, I realized that the PLKN Camp is right next to the Kem Bina Semangat where I'm going to learn about S.P.I.E.S. (Fuh... cuak jer... hehe=D)
So, the programme begins. By then, they told us about the S.P.I.E.S. 'S' is for Spirituality, 'P' is for Physical, 'I' is for Intellectual, 'E' is for Emotion, and lastly 'S' is for Social. Hehe.. Suprise!!! This S.P.I.E.S is not for spying, people. It's all about motivating ourselves.
Well, i'm not gonna tell y'all the details cos' you guys have experience the programme itself. hehe Cian korang semua... kuikuikui.. But, I'm gonna share with you guys about how my team and I struggling to make a 'rakit' without using hammer and nails. Pakai 10 utas tali,2 papan segi-empat leper,3 papan kayu petak dan 3 biji tong dram. Giler ar. Memang struggle giler. Nak kena pasang ketat2 to make sure the tong drum would never slipped out from the rakit. But on our first tryout, baru je dis one girl nak naik, suddenly 1 of the papan kayu petak tu patah. As a team leader(chewah), I told them to stay calm, as I went back to take a new piece of wood to reconnect the rakit. Alhamdulillah, it worked!
Macam2 lagi yang berlaku; kitorang kena dayung rakit tu kat tengah2 tasik yg dalam(kitorg dah pun buat teori n amali dgn menggunakan life-jacket). Ada rakit team lain tiba2 'breakdown'; habis ikatan rakit dorang tercabut and they have to swim with the stuff to the nearest checkpoint to reconnect the rakit back. Kitorang punya pun sama; tong dram terangkat ke atas. Nasib baik tak tenggelam rakit kitorang(Thanks to the tong drams' buoyancy and thank God!)
Above all, it all depends on our teamwork, faith, emotion, everything. Alhamdulillah, even though my team was the last one who arrived at the first move, but on the final race, my team achieved the second place(YOOHOO!!!). Alhamdulillah...
Whatever it is, the programme do teaches me how to be a great leader; how to be a great person here on Earth and at the Hereafter. May Allah bless on what I've learned from this camp@programme...
p/s: this programme is only for the selangorians, so kalau korang nak rasa, cepat2 la tukar tempat study ke selangor ataupun pindah rumah ke selangor. hehe... If you guys want's to know more details, feel free to visit this site: www.spies.selangor.gov.my.
